random reflecting

I always get so sad whenever Kennedie's birthday gets close. I know it's a very happy time, but it just goes so fast. It's always hard for me to scrapbook, looking back at how small she was. As I tucked her into bed tonight, I look at how tall she is and it just breaks my heart that she's growing so fast! Don't get me wrong, I really try to embrace each day and I cherish our sweet time together. But as I watched my baby boy eat dinner, in a small chair, pulled up to a kid's table tonight...eating out of a bowl...he looked like he could have been 3! This week is full of planning his first birthday party and planning his 1st birthday pictures. It absolutely breaks my heart. I cannot wrap my brain around the idea that exactly one year ago, I was begging my OB to induce me because it just wasn't physically possible to grow any larger than I already had. I had to be admitted into the hospital 3 days before he was born because I got such a bad stomach virus and was so dehydrated, and they still wouldn't induce me! But looking back, I'm so thankful for the way it all played out. I am so thankful that my dear husband was by my side when our precious baby boy came into this world. Things could have been so different, but God is so very good. Although I'm so sad to have to plan this 1st birthday party without Daddy here, I'm so thankful for the time he was here. And in just about 30 short days...he'll be back home with us! I cannot wait for the times I get to watch him and our sweet baby boy reacquaint. For the times James gets to teach him how to make the truck and car noises (Mommy's not so good at that). For the times that they can go outside and just spend hours in the yard or in the garage...just doing boy stuff.
Sorry, this turned out to be a choppy, kind of random, blog.
But before I go, I just want to thank those of you who have been there for us during this past year. This has been such a trying time, but I have found just how strong I really am. I am so thankful for my healthy, happy family. In times like this, you really do find out who your true friends are.
Kelli