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Colton and I had another one of our nights last night. He woke up at around 1 and just seemed like he was awake. Not cranky, fussy, whining...just awake. I tried a few things, gave him some milk and tried to let him cry it out for a bit (I'm not very good at that...). While he did that, I had this overwhelming urge to come check a blog. I saw this story about this sweet girl named Tuesday last week on the Steece blog. She has stage 4 neuroblastoma and the size has doubled in the past week, making it too strong for chemo treatments. They sent her sweet family home, to be together, for what was sure to be her last days. She is a twin and just over 3 months older than my Colton. I checked her mom's blog and saw that she had passed away sometime that day. Oh, my heart aches for this sweet family. I really, really thought I knew how capable my heart was of loving when I met James 11 years ago. He is my soul mate and understands me on so many levels. But when we were blessed...twice...with two beautiful, healthy babies...now, that's a love that you just cannot describe. So, I went in and scooped up my precious baby boy and just held him. I sang, cried, prayed...just held him. I just cannot help but think of these helpless mothers who would give their own lives, just to take the pain away from their own children. I am so very blessed and I thank God every single day for the blessings in my life.
Another dear friend of mine has been battling cancer for 3 years now. She has had many ups and downs. She went last week for a monthly scan, to make sure she was still clear. The cancer moved...it's now in 3 more places, including her lungs. This family is so dear to us. They have incredible faith...faith that could move mountains. She has been healed before and will no doubt be healed again. Please pray for my precious friends during this trying time.
Sorry to unload on you all in this post. This has all been so heavy on my heart...and this is my journal...where I can express myself. Please tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. Hold your babies tight and thank those around you.
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.